“I just want them to know that I gave my all, did my best, brought someone some happiness; left this world a little better just because I was here. I was here. I lived, I loved. I was here. I did, I’ve done, everything that I wanted and it was more than I thought it would be. I wanna leave my mark so everyone will know I was here.”
I’ve always been one to claim that the opinions that others hold about me are irrelevant. That regardless of what anyone has to say about me as a person or my actions, I’ll do what satisfies me. Somewhere along this path, I lost sight of that. This has been the summer of me finding myself again. I took a lot of time out for reflection. Not only did I start the recovery of a struggling relationship with Him, but I came to the realization that for so long I’ve been doing what made everyone else happy. I allowed my happiness, to be based on the happiness of others. All the while that I thought I was happy, I was anything but. As I’ve started to work to make myself happy, everything that used to be so vague and blurred is so clear and apparent.
I’m so blessed to have been given this passion. With every comment, email and letter received, I see more and more how amazing it is to touch the lives of others. If I accomplish nothing else in this world, I know that I’ve accomplished success by inspiring another soul to better their life. When I leave this world behind for a better place, will there be a story to be told? Money, material possessions and titles won’t account for anything, so am I working to build a story worth telling? When my time has expired, “I’ll leave no regrets; leave something to remember so they won’t forget I was here.” I will have lived, and I hope those that knew me can say in confidence that I made a difference in this world. You’ve never experienced true, genuine happiness, until you know that you’ve made a positive impact on the life of another. It’s a feeling that’s unmatched and indescribable.
With His blessing, I determine my own happiness, success and ability. Regardless of whether they’re friends, family or acquaintances, the negative opinions of others are completely irrelevant. Ultimately, my mark will be left here to speak for me and the work I’ve done. As Bey said in a documentary of her new album entitled 4, “I don’t have to prove anything to anyone. I only have to follow my heart & concentrate on what I want to say to the world. I run my world.”