“If you just realize what I just realized, then we’d be perfect for each other and will never find another. Just realize what I just realized. We’d never have to wonder if we missed out on each other now.”
As we were becoming closer to our destination of choice for the evening, my heart began to race, faster and faster. I turned to my clutch and told him I was so nervous. It was our Delta Sigma Pi reunion weekend and out of all the brothers that had confirmed their attendance, I was the most uneasy about Mr. Man’s. Over the past few months we’ve worked on rekindling our friendship and it’s weird to think that around this time last year we were linked in a relationship.
I sipped my drink to ease my nerves and before I knew it, there he was approaching me with that same wide, beaming grin that I fell in love with. I smiled and said hello, and he consumed me in his arms. He made his rounds and came back to me. No words were necessary. We both just stood and smiled at one another. The emotion in our eyes and warmth in our smiles spoke a thousand words.
As the night went on, we flirted and fought just like old times. Deep down I could tell his feelings for me hadn’t changed, and I saw that neither had mine. But instead of analyzing and worrying, I just lived in the moment as we talked, laughed, and danced the night away. His boy-like company melted away every care in my world. And as the weekend progressed, so did this new “friendship.” Evenings turned into mornings, and a room for one became one for two.
Our last morning came all too quickly. I had to accept the fact that this weekend had to end, and so did this fairy tale. He gave me that same goofy grin and again engulfed me in his arms. He told me to have a safe trip and I wished him the same. I drove away and my mind began to clarify. My thoughts became realizations. I began to realize, all of this happened for a reason – a reason more than just a good time. I’m not quite sure of the reasoning, but I know there’s some significance in how he always gives me butterflies, I’ve never felt the way I do for him for anyone else, and I find splendor in his imperfections. But I guess until he realizes, I’ll continue to wonder..